Saturday, April 17, 2010Y
Bad Day, Bad Mood
It is raining, raining super heavily. This is how i feel now. My heart felt so heavily, full of my tears and sadness.I quarrled with him and he left me alone at home in the end.
I felt hurt, sad, depress, negative......There's no light shining in front of me. My life, My future, My dream seems so so far away from me. I really want someone can talk, encourage and persuade me. Really care about me and love me. Where are you?
Recently, i felt that there's something different happened to my relationship. Something different happened to my life. Firstly, my skin got allergy. Then is my boyfriend anyhow shouted at me and beat me.I was damn angry becuz i was never beaten and scolded by anyway except my father. He not treated me as a puppy, rubbish. When he was angry, he shouted at me. When he got a bad temper, he would beat me and tighten me. It is so horrible... so that i cannot bear it anymore.
No matter how hard i cried, i still not understand what happen to him. What 's wrong with us. I wanted say i wanna give up and break up. I really did want do it.
Pls Help me, the sort of light. Tell me what to do. Tell me what happen. Tell me what i did wrongly. Heal me and bring me back to the normal life. Let the miracle and hope present in front of me.
I know i dont have the quality to ask for these. But i dont want to cheat you. This is what i want to say. With out please you, without satisfy you. Just only tell you that I want to say this to you lord. I know you are looking at me rite now. I know you are teasing at me lord. Becuz this is what i deserve to be suffered.I didnt listen to your word. Maybe I too care abt him le. I should let him go and I should le the relationship go.
Dear Lord........ Help me...........
2:12 AM
